I am fifty-two years old, married with a grown son who lives at home, and a very neurotic nine-year-old cat. I have struggled with anxiety and depression since my early teens years, going years without medication, trying to prove I didn’t need it. Finally, a family doctor prescribed Paxil back in the nineties for me. I developed asthma in 1997, becoming very ill.
This was the beginning of my re-evaluation of my relationship with the Lord. Lying flat on my back in my bed, I wondered “Why Lord?” The answer was very clear: “Because this is the only way I can get you to submit to Me.”
Despite this set back in my health, I enjoyed my career as a corrections counselor. I am intensely interested in other people and what makes them tick. My job was the perfect vehicle for witnessing to hurting people. If a client opened the door, I walked through it.
In late 2002, I began to experience some balance, memory, and fatigue problems, which in turn, worsened my anxiety. By the spring of 2003, the stress of trying to hold on to my job, had become too much. One day I found myself looking at my computer screen, unable to understand the document I was viewing.
The next eight months were spent trying to pin down a diagnosis. By January of 2004, I had one: multiple sclerosis. With medication, my flare-ups were fairly well controlled, and I realized I was blessed to have the relapse-remitting type of MS.
In the summer of 2006, I discovered Rest Ministries. Myself and several other people from my church were trying to start a support group for the chronically ill. I ordered some materials from Rest Ministries, and the group was off and running. Another piece of the puzzle came together when in December of 2007 I was diagnosed with bi-polar disorder.
The symptoms are now well controlled by medication. My illnesses and struggles have truly brought me closer to my Lord, and back to Rest Ministries. I have found information on this site to be very helpful to me personally. I also have used this site as a resource shared among the members of the support group.
The Lord has truly brought me through the fire, and when I read what others have written in the Sunroom forums, I know I’m in the right place. May He use the knowledge I have gained to His Glory, and to bring other to the Living Water.